| When you dream big, you sometimes lose big. I have always been a guy that conjures up grand schemes and plans. Sometimes they actually work and are really cool. I encounter that in my businesses. Sometimes though, you dream of something and take steps toward it only to have others pull the dream out from under you or in some other way have it not work out. Here lately, I have a had a few of those in a row. I would be lying to you if I said it didn’t affect me. It has me a little down. It is hard not to doubt yourself in those scenarios. It is hard not to think of yourself as the problem and to spiral into a negative thinking abyss (sounds dramatic, eh). I would like to say that I am immune to that. That when something doesn’t go the way I want it to or a big plan doesn’t take off, I just brush it off and move to the next one. Again, I would be lying to you. Instead, I keep all the failures on my shoulders. I wear all of them. I don’t let them go. I don’t necessarily dwell on them, instead they just become part of me. When I have the next big idea, I consider all the failures. All of them. I can’t really explain how this feels. It just is. I just feel all of them. Sometimes it emboldens me. Sometimes it slows me down. But it is always there. A huge lump of failures. There is also a huge lump of successes but the failures are usually louder (sounds human, right). I’m sure its not always healthy. I’m sure there is some therapy out there that can make me let this stuff go but I am not sure I want to. I feel like these failures make me who I am. They stick around to create wisdom, discernment, caution and pause. They temper impulsivity. Yes, they slow things down some. Sometimes they probably even prevent action. And maybe that misses opportunities. But maybe it prevents injury too. That’s all I got today. I hope it helped you in some way. In the words of Bill S. Preston, esq. “Be Excellent To Each Other.” |
